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Right Balance of Life


At times I feel so confused.. thinking what do I want in life?, or rather what do I want from life?. Is it physical or mental satisfaction merely or something beyond this?.

 Sipping my cup of tea, my brain gets millions of thoughts. We are born , we grow up , marry have children and we grow old then we die. This is a normal process of life, rather a stark truth of life. But what is life, I m perplexed with the question most of the time, one of the most quizzical term since my childhood. Being a child I had always read books and searched things about life. But now at a age when I have experienced 25 years on this beautiful mother earth, I can atleast try to get a better view of life, better understanding and maybe better jotting of it in words. Life is just a 4 letter word, but comprises the whole universe in it.

We are born and we start running after soo many things ,be it anything. The craving for each materialistic thing increases. One need is satisfied and the other pops up. Why do we run after all this if we have to die?.I often question myself about it? If at the end , I want eternal peace why do I feel I need to work and I need to do something good for my family?. At times I feel I shall leave everthything and get into spirituality , but then the next thought says what about my responsibilities??, then the next pop up in brain is?, M I really responsible for sumthing?.

Everything will be managed , me there or me there not. Life still moves on?. So does my existence really matters?. Then I think , I am educated now , so would work for some 20 years and then devote myself to sumthing which is beyond all this. Maybe this is balance in life. As a child grows old, he is prepared to go to school, same way when we start getting old, we have to prepare ourself to go to Him. Then a thought cropped up in my mind, what if from our body the soul goes away?. Then the body becomes dead, as per science. Right now I can type whatever I want, as per my will, but if from my body this soul goes away, I cant even blink an eye. Amazing , if you actually think about it. Without soul the body is a dead body. Soul, again a 4 letter word,but what is it?, that makes all the body part active?. All the things function in our body? And without it , we are nothing. Soul which I have heard from people is a part of Him and if we are lucky, it gets into him. Imagine we are born and then we die , but the soul remains the same.

 No one can harm it touch it, or hurt it, it does nt bleed. It’s like soul changes bodies, be it in any shape and in any form. Soul, the biggest human miracle is right inside us and we keep searching for things that can tell us God exist or does not?. How ironical human is! Alas.. I some how feel connected to him. I like that feeling very much. I enjoy it and I enjoy making people happy around me.

I like freedom and have now understood that do what your heart says and don’t go with what people say. At the end if u do something wrong , u atleast know ur mistake are yours and u haad not been a pawn in a game played by people around you. Life your life the way you want. Have courage to say No. Have courage to do what makes you feel happy, as at the end it’s about the soul, which dances when we do something which connects us to Him. Writing for eg. Is something I cherish and feels like writing more and more… anything and everything, but have realized with time that most of my writings makes me feel more closer to Him. As I might start with anything ends with spiritual discussion. So now m trying to make a balance in my life.

Not run after things.Do what I Like. Atleast start doing what I like. Gives me immense pleasure. But when I get back to the same people who talk about only materialistic things, I again tend to think, am I lagging behind?, is money everything?.

Then I feel No. Maybe the people who run after all this, all this means, success, fame , money, etc etc. they might feel satisfied that yes that they got all this, but at the end, they realize, how much fake all of this is. We life 2 lives internal and external. Both crave and both wanna be fed with different things. How to stike a right balance is a process called Life. Life is a process. There are 4 things that gives us pain In life Jealousy ,desires, death & addiction. If a man is not Aaffected by bad , affected by good , M sure he rules his senses. This kind of person surely has internal inclination towards the Most powerful Soul, Him.

Soo much to explore, maybe next time .. can keep on writing and writing on this… All things apart, you might gain anything from life, emotional stability and intellectual openness will only lead you to the right balance of Life.

Never Give up…

Don’t give up . . .

One day I decided to quit . . .

I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality . . . I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. ‘God’, I asked, ‘Can you give me one good reason not to quit?’

His answer surprised me… ‘Look around’, He said. ‘Do you see the fern and the bamboo?’

‘Yes’, I replied.

‘When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light.I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor.Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.

And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

‘In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit.’ He said.

‘Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.

Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant . . . But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots mad e it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.’

He asked me. ‘Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots’.‘I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you.’

‘Don’t compare yourself to others.’ He said. ‘The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.Yet they both make the forest beautiful.’

‘Your time will come’, God said to me.‘You will rise high’

‘How high should I rise?’I asked.

‘How high will the bamboo rise?’ He asked in return.

‘As high as it can?’ I questioned.

‘Yes.’ He said, ‘Give me glory by rising as high as you can.’

I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.

Never, Never, Never Give up.

For the Prayer is not an option but an opportunity. Don’t tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!!!

God Bless you…

I searched God….

http://rockingchairwisdom.files.wordpress.com/2008/01/rocking_chair_animated.gifSitting on a rocking chair…of my Grandfather…the crackling voice getting into my ears..
the whole House empty… ..Living with him for past 25 years….His demise filled my mind with endless questions… whts d purpose of our existence… whts d need..why are we born..
Who has answers…. all have myraid questions… cold questions… as if the silence is getting into the darkness and becoming one…. as if there is hot blood puring out from an iceburg…
absorbing the soul of humanity…. Silence disturbing the mind…
God or devil? are they one? are they 2 sides of a coin?… funny ain’t it… in our subconcious mind…we have all this embedded..
as soon as our mind gets into any activity that relates to.. death and life and supernatural instincts..to God.. our unconcious brain strats functioning..
and we become inquisitive…
And honestly the answers comes from the inside world not outside…
Who is GOD?? IS he there??? , if he is , why cant I see Him? Why cant i Feel him? Why cant he talk to me? , Why can’t?
Spirituality is the “IN” thing today… people talk abt it… lots and lots… But do we know what is it…
the real people who get into spirituality… minimize there needs and live a normal lyf between us… they are one of us..one among us….
But wid d aura on there face one can tell …it’s someone with high intellects…Where is GOd… is he is there why does he not help… why does he not listen…While i was in that thought process.. felt someone’s hand on my shoulder…
Was one of my very aged aunt…
she understood my condition.. she shared a story with me .. which gave me an inside..and opned me to a new intellectual world…
Open up ur brains , while I share the same with you…
A Customer Goes to a small Saloon.. the person gets seated on the chair.. while the customer awaits for his turn, they start to have a conversation.
A conversation which inturn turned to the debate on Existence of God.. The Owner gives the customer a haircut..

Owner:”There is nothing like God friend.If he had been there..d World wud be a better place.. ther wud be no diseases.. no pain.. no misery ..
no rich.. no poor… no hunger.. no floods..no painful deaths…

Look at what has happened.. the world has turned ugly.. people cheat each other.. Money is God..
there is no God in real..”

Customer:” We all are accountable for the Karma of  our past births.. Whatever we do .. we are accountable for it.. Someone is there to keep an eye..always… and we forget it…mostly..

Owner: ” I don’t think so, Look at rich eating money and getting richer and prospering day by day. what do u say on that”

Customer:” Child,wht is prosperity for us now?, a person buying a big house? buying a big car? going abroad?speding money on vacations?,using best luxaries?, dat sit”.       think.. is that prosperity? it’s materialistic prosperity.. and trust me if you have used bad means to get that prosperity.. either you.. or your family , or your coming generation will have to repay it.” Think child.. of the people whom u call have prospered.. go back to memories.. think abt the one’s who are rich by bad means.. and then think what do they have now.. money.. maybe yes.. but peep into there house.. u know the real story…, then u decide.. so we pay back according to Karma or past karma or kour near and and dear one’s pay for it..?”
Owner: :I agree to some extent but i still feel there is No GOD”.

Customer: “Smiles blissfully , while his haircut is complete”.Gets up and  Stands at the enterance of the Saloon,he cud see a shabby begger.. with long hair and untrimmed beard. He goes back to the Owner and says ,there are no bARBER’S in the world…

Owner: “what the hell  are u saying”, are u mad.. moron?”
Customer: NO there are no barber’s in the world..
Owner: “I think u are mad..i just gave u a cut how cud u say that”.
Customer: If there had been Barber’s in the world.. No man wud be having untrimmed hair and beard..pointing his finger to the shabby begger walking outside”
Owner: ” Are u out of your head.. if he wants a cut.. he has to come to me ..i dont have to go to him”.
Customer: Exactly my child.. if you want his help.. u have to go to him.. he will not come to you”. If you ask 10 things from God and he fulfills 3, that does not mean he is not listening. That means he listens but to limited wants.But that does not mean he is not there, and he does not listen…”
The Owner has tears in his eyes…
Customer: “Tears takes you closer to God, purifies you”.
Owner:”How will i reach him”
Customer: 2 ways, 1 go to his shop directly or hold someone’s hand who is already inside his shop.(A Guru, a path shower).     Stand in front of the mirror, what do you see..ur body. Wen your own body is not yours, who else will be yours.

The story ended…

The aunt continued…

A small child when asked his father , “Where is God Papa”, Father pointed the finger at heaven.. He stays there…

Y do we say that… ? Ever thought of it?

He is inside us…We just have to find him.. meet him… Imagine.. a big large Aura.. which has all the souls inside it.. and our tiny souls are a part of that soul… so the soul is always happy to reutn to the bigger soul… where it can be Complete… An ultimate Nirvana…

Imagine .. wen a child dies or anyone in ur family dies, how painful it is to overcome.. ever imagined, how painful is it for God to decide , whose life to end whose to remain… after all we are all his children.
She told me this and went to the other room… bysaying.. “Faith is the soul…” We dont need to be petrified , we just have to believe… and she left the room…
Once again it was silence in the room, the chair making no more voices…
but this silence was peaceful and filled with tranquility… D hunger had been fed… d thoughts got a new direction…